I am a brother
I am a police detective
I am a contract killer
I don’t want to love
I don’t want to feel
I don’t want … EMPATHY.
They say some people are born with decreased activity in the front central lobe causing them a deficiency in empathy. Maybe that’s true about me but whether I was born this way or created in a moment of evil, empathy was something I didn’t possess until her green eyes met mine in the mirror and I couldn’t take her life.
I didn’t want to feel, didn’t want this woman in my life complicating how I lived but she was there at every turn. Sent to haunt me for my sins. Her light so bright she provoked a shadow from everyone she touched. When a job turns bad quickly altering my life forever I’m forced to feel. When nothing is making sense I’m forced to face truths I never would recover from. When life drowns you in its cruelty you don’t know which way the current will drag you or who you’ll become once you re-surface.
I was a daughter
I was a student
I was a victim
Did I have his love?
Did I make him feel?
Did I have his empathy?
When the actions of a soulless killer forces sorrow into my veins I never dreamed the man healing my wounds would be the one to leave the worst scar. His love would scar my soul. Scars are permanent; I will never feel the relief from them. Will I learn to live with them, remember why I have them and learn never to let him close enough to inflict more? Will I eventually cover them… like tattoos coating them with new memories, new love and new starts? I didn’t know these answers because the pain was too suffocating, the only thing I knew was they will always be under the surface lingering. He had scars too, from his sins. There is nothing that can cover them, they were too deep, too ugly, too dark and they marked us both forever.
Well, where to begin? Even though this is not your typical hearts and flowers romance - you will love it!
The never ending revelations, twists, turns and darkness take you on one heck of an original ride.
Melody is a girl who has the perfect life. She has love and support from both parents and plans in place for her future . She's well on her way to achieving her goals in life and it all gets swiped away from her in a matter of minutes. The trauma that girl is delivered is just devastating! Your heart breaks for her, enveloping you in such a darkness you can feel it. You can feel how her world comes crumbling down into an agonising billion pieces at her feet. All credit here goes to Ker's detailed writing. I would be lying if I said no tears were shed whilst reading Melody's pain.
Then there is Blake - the monster you cannot help but love. Ker has me questioning my sanity when I cant help but fall in love with Blake. Despite the life he lives, his back story totally helps take the sting away from his actions. We get to see in more depth why he does what he does and why he thinks the way he does. Again you are submerged in a darkness that you find yourself hoping will lift.
From the moment Blake and Melody find each other - its fate. We get to see them relive each others darkness and grow together in a relationship which is best described as a hot as hell volcano which can erupt in more ways than one at any time and if and when it does its catastrophic!
After taking in all the details of each character I was a gonner. Captured by this story, not able to put the book down until the very end! (My poor children & fella had to fend for themselves haha!)
The revelations at the end of the book left me in an absolute gobsmacked awe! Crazy how some ones ideas and words all put together can have such an effect on another person.
This was a refreshing change of pace from the books I usually read but all credit goes to Ker Dukey. Amazing.
It was Dark, it was intense, it was satisfying and I definitely recommend this book! 5 Stars Awarded by moi! ~ Donna!